Dreams

Everybody have their own dreams and something that they want to achieve.

As example some people dreams to be a success person and have a big house, sport car and more. Yeah It's good to have such that dreams.

For me? My dreams is to have a happy family with my loves one and have a happy life. I don't mind  if I doesn't have a big house, sport car and a luxury life. As long as I have my loves one besides of me it is enough for me and we care about each other. Yeah people say everything needs money nowadays but we need to remember money can't buy happiness. 

I give a example and let us take a moment to think.

In a restaurant, there is two family. The first family comes with a luxurious MPV. The parent comes with a beautiful attire and their kids wear branded outfit with their latest gadget. After that, the second family comes with an old car. The parents just wear a simple dress up and their kids just wear a plain shirt and a jeans. Then both families get to their table. 

So the first family order their food. Everyone order their own food. "One beef stick please with a carbonated drinks","Give me a mushroom soup with a cup of hot coffee" and follow by the other family member. Then the waiter comes to the second family. The father said "WE want a large pizza please with a plain water". Everyone look to the father. "Just kidding. Give us a jug of lemon juice"

So the waiter pass the order to the chef.

While waiting for the dishes, everybody in the first family busy with their own stuff. The father busy with his unsettle jobs, while the mom busy with her group and the kids busy with their social media. While the other family laughing and playing around. The father make jokes, the mom hear to her daughter problems and the boy talk about their crush to the father. 

After a few minutes, the foods arrive. The first family hold their cutlery. Everyone eat and enjoy their food but they still busy doing their own stuff. While the other table, share their foods together and have a chat. "Dad. It is delicious and I have another one" So the dad pass the last slice to his kid. " Nevermind that I just want eat a few bite. So let we cut it into a half" 

When everything settle, both parent pay for the bill. First family costs 150$ and the second family 30$. Then everybody get back to their home.

Based on the story above. Do you see and get what I means?

"Everything need money but money can't buy everything"

Missing You is A Greatest Pain

Hi guys,  
It's have be a long time for me to post my new story.

Today, 
I would like to share about love story. It's about a love story that separated by a distance :( 

My love one named Fatin Norshazwani. She is staying in Kuala Lumpur while me at Bentong, Pahang. Yeah it might look like just a few a mile away but it is difficult for us to meet. Journey to her cost a RM50 for tol and petrol. For met her I can meet one time in a month since I need to save my money for our plan in the future.

The point is not about the expenses. It's about the pain for missing her :(
It's hurt me a lot for me. It's a worse experience that I get through ever. I'm thinking about  her 24/7. When I was alone and scroll down all the picture and video about her, the tears flow through my cheeks slowly and getting heavy . I miss all the moment with her. I love to see when she get mad (it's look cute for me) and her laugh. I don't know to control my emotion now. I always wonder when all of this gonna end. 
Until when both for us to be like this? Why my relationship is being so difficult? 

I just wanna be with her 24/7 :( I just wanna make a lot of memory with her :(
I just wanna see her face, laugh, act and all of the things that related with her 


I really need her now :( 

She feed me for the first time

Sorry

 Today is the worse day for me. I have hurt my sweetheart continuosly and too much. If I could turn back the time I would like to go back to the 23 hours before and fix my mistake. I am very stupid and careless. Arggghhhhh. I'm very sorry, Fatin Norshazwani binti Abdul Hisham. I'm begging you. I'm not perfect and I promise that I will fix my mistake and never repeat the same mistake in the future. FORGIVE ME BECAUSE I HAVE HURT YOU.

I LOVE YOU

Love? Talking about love, it is complicated for me. I’ve engaged with many kind of love. The most unforgettable is when my first love broke my heart for the first time. It’s nightmare for me. I was trying to let it go by searching for love with the other girls. Slowly, I successfully to forget the nightmare but I think become a bad boy when I’ve play with many hearts. My bad behavior continue until to the college. I used my asset as a bait and successfully get this one girl. I’ve make her love me so much but I am too greedy that time by looking for someone better. I left her and make she cry. I left her just for chasing someone that doesn’t love me like she done to me. Allah have shown me His power when the girl that I’ve chasing for is a liar and make me cry all day long. It’s hurt me so much and make me hate to fall in love again

                However, my life changes when I’ve stop from studying and start working. I’ve met this one lady. She’s small and so cute. I think that I’ve fall in love again and try to stop it but I can’t. We’ve start to get closer day by day. She is very special and very different from the other. It make me want to know more about her. My day become so colorful since that day. One day, something bad was happen and I’m very disappointed. I’ve try to keep far away from her but I failed. My world become upside down when we’re not talking with each other. So, I decided to settle all this thing. Alhamdulillah everything is getting better. We’re be like normal back.

 After a few month to be together, we’re become very close. She have become more than a best friend to me. She treats me very nice that I never get from the other girl. She makes my day. When she is not with me, I feel like something missing. I feel like my world have lost the sunshine and rainbow. Then, she have make me believe that the true love isn’t extinct yet. Now, she have become the special woman in my life that I hopefully to be the mother for my children and be the queen for my world. Dear Sayang, if you read this I just want you to know that I’m really love you and they will no other woman in my heart except you. I want you to know that I never play with your heart. Sincerely, I love you for the rest of my life and I'm sorry if I make mistakes before or soon. 

A moment without you like I'm walking on loneliest place ever.

My First Working Experience

Assalamualaikum and Hi, 

I think this is my first post since my last post on January. Today, I would like to share about my experience to have my first jobs.

After a few days at home , I just thinks to search a job for fill my time. So, I have gone to Kuala Lumpur and stay with my aunties. It is quiet hard to find a job actually. I have apply to many company but still there is no respond from them. Some of them have call me for interview but still no answer. Lastly, I have go to The Store M3 Mall and apply there. Luckily I get the jobs. Alhamdulillah.

After a few weeks, I am feel more comfortable with the circumferences there. Even I feel a little bit tired , I am very happy with my jobs now. I think that my confident level increase and improve well. The moment that I can't forget is when I get my first salary. It's hard to describe the feelings. Only Allah knows my feeling at that moment. 

I think that's from me for today. Gonna see you later. Bye.     

My Photoshop Product

Assalamualaikum and Hi  to all my readers,

Sorry because it have be long time for me to post any entry here. Actually, I’m quite busy practicing with Adobe Photoshop. It’s fun to do all this stuff since it’s my hobby. Mostly I watch Photoshop Tutorial from YouTube and apply it. Sometimes, I will copy the Film Poster. Not 100% but almost there by using pictures of me. “I’m the model and I’m the editor “. Hahahaha

So this is some of my product :

This is my first Project. What do you think ?

Me and The Transformer

Goodbye

I can't be the real celebrity. So, by doing this
I feel like I am actor. Hahaha. I hope I have the chances
to be an actor

Try to copy most love story film poster

Goodbye Ipoh

Last night, I have took a big decision for my life. I have decided to quit my study. It is a quite though decisions. I have make the decision after I was thinking about it for a few day.

      

          I have decided to quit because the fee is too expensive. Before this, I doesn’t care about this because I believe in and hope for an organization that will support me by providing a loan. However, everything getting worse when I get knew that the organization will only provide the loan for the student that have very low financial income and doesn’t able pay the fee. I doesn’t denied that my parent able to pay it by using own money but I have two more sister below me and MYR600 per month for fee can do lot of things. It can load me with food or pay car monthly payment. Just Kidding.

                It is very hard to make this decision because the course that I get through right now is my favorite one but I need to sacrifice it. “Sometimes we need to sacrifice something that we like or love to for the others importance”. It is a saddest and difficult moment in my life. Only Allah knows this feeling.

                All I hope now is that this decision is right and I can still further my study in any government education institute. The memory when I was studying in Ipoh is one of the best moment for the rest of my life. I think that’s all for this entries. Hold On. Before that, I want to remind all of the SPM candidates to do the best as you can or you will regret like me. All the best guys!! That's all from me. Thank You.

College Life Begin

 Assalamualaikum and Hi,

                

There is a few day left before my semester break over. So, I am will going back to Ipoh and getting through as a college student. There are lot things playing in my mind.

                

One of them is, can I get through the life as a single one? The situation at the home and the college are totally different. You can see many couple in there. Some of them are studying together, going for lunch together and more. Of course I will get jealous with that. Compare to home, I doesn’t care about that because my parent alongside. I hope that I will survive. Hopefully. HAHAHAHA

 Next, I am thinking how I can control my daily expenses. Based on my observation, I am quite extravagant and it doesn’t make my parent happy. How I should do? After I make some 

calculation, this is the daily expenditure:

ITEM	COST
BREAKFAST
NASI LEMAK/ROTI CANAI +TEH TARIK	RM 4
LUNCH
LUNCH MEAL + SKY JUICE	RM 5
DINNER
NASI BUJANG + SKY JUICE (Sometimes I cook for myself)	RM 4
TOTAL	RM 14

It’s quite expensive right? Sometimes I miss my dinner to control my expenses. It’s not included with assignment cost. Just said that monthly cost on meal is RM 400 and assignment cost is RM 100 and the total is RM 500/month. OMG!! Besides it is not mix with some entertainment. Hmmmmm. Can you imagine it? Sometimes we need to release our tension as a student by entertain ourselves.

               

I think that’s all for today. May my next semester I will improvise myself in all aspects.

What should I do ?