Missing You is A Greatest Pain

Hi guys,  
It's have be a long time for me to post my new story.

Today, 
I would like to share about love story. It's about a love story that separated by a distance :( 

My love one named Fatin Norshazwani. She is staying in Kuala Lumpur while me at Bentong, Pahang. Yeah it might look like just a few a mile away but it is difficult for us to meet. Journey to her cost a RM50 for tol and petrol. For met her I can meet one time in a month since I need to save my money for our plan in the future.

The point is not about the expenses. It's about the pain for missing her :(
It's hurt me a lot for me. It's a worse experience that I get through ever. I'm thinking about  her 24/7. When I was alone and scroll down all the picture and video about her, the tears flow through my cheeks slowly and getting heavy . I miss all the moment with her. I love to see when she get mad (it's look cute for me) and her laugh. I don't know to control my emotion now. I always wonder when all of this gonna end. 
Until when both for us to be like this? Why my relationship is being so difficult? 

I just wanna be with her 24/7 :( I just wanna make a lot of memory with her :(
I just wanna see her face, laugh, act and all of the things that related with her 


I really need her now :( 

She feed me for the first time

Sorry

 Today is the worse day for me. I have hurt my sweetheart continuosly and too much. If I could turn back the time I would like to go back to the 23 hours before and fix my mistake. I am very stupid and careless. Arggghhhhh. I'm very sorry, Fatin Norshazwani binti Abdul Hisham. I'm begging you. I'm not perfect and I promise that I will fix my mistake and never repeat the same mistake in the future. FORGIVE ME BECAUSE I HAVE HURT YOU.

I LOVE YOU

Love? Talking about love, it is complicated for me. I’ve engaged with many kind of love. The most unforgettable is when my first love broke my heart for the first time. It’s nightmare for me. I was trying to let it go by searching for love with the other girls. Slowly, I successfully to forget the nightmare but I think become a bad boy when I’ve play with many hearts. My bad behavior continue until to the college. I used my asset as a bait and successfully get this one girl. I’ve make her love me so much but I am too greedy that time by looking for someone better. I left her and make she cry. I left her just for chasing someone that doesn’t love me like she done to me. Allah have shown me His power when the girl that I’ve chasing for is a liar and make me cry all day long. It’s hurt me so much and make me hate to fall in love again

                However, my life changes when I’ve stop from studying and start working. I’ve met this one lady. She’s small and so cute. I think that I’ve fall in love again and try to stop it but I can’t. We’ve start to get closer day by day. She is very special and very different from the other. It make me want to know more about her. My day become so colorful since that day. One day, something bad was happen and I’m very disappointed. I’ve try to keep far away from her but I failed. My world become upside down when we’re not talking with each other. So, I decided to settle all this thing. Alhamdulillah everything is getting better. We’re be like normal back.

 After a few month to be together, we’re become very close. She have become more than a best friend to me. She treats me very nice that I never get from the other girl. She makes my day. When she is not with me, I feel like something missing. I feel like my world have lost the sunshine and rainbow. Then, she have make me believe that the true love isn’t extinct yet. Now, she have become the special woman in my life that I hopefully to be the mother for my children and be the queen for my world. Dear Sayang, if you read this I just want you to know that I’m really love you and they will no other woman in my heart except you. I want you to know that I never play with your heart. Sincerely, I love you for the rest of my life and I'm sorry if I make mistakes before or soon. 

A moment without you like I'm walking on loneliest place ever.

My First Working Experience

Assalamualaikum and Hi, 

I think this is my first post since my last post on January. Today, I would like to share about my experience to have my first jobs.

After a few days at home , I just thinks to search a job for fill my time. So, I have gone to Kuala Lumpur and stay with my aunties. It is quiet hard to find a job actually. I have apply to many company but still there is no respond from them. Some of them have call me for interview but still no answer. Lastly, I have go to The Store M3 Mall and apply there. Luckily I get the jobs. Alhamdulillah.

After a few weeks, I am feel more comfortable with the circumferences there. Even I feel a little bit tired , I am very happy with my jobs now. I think that my confident level increase and improve well. The moment that I can't forget is when I get my first salary. It's hard to describe the feelings. Only Allah knows my feeling at that moment. 

I think that's from me for today. Gonna see you later. Bye.